The End I Didn't Want To Come

Last week my basketball career ended. We went to the state tournament and we were upset in the first round against Valley. I don't think I have ever been more upset in my entire life. I felt like I let the team down because I knew I could play so much better. I had an awful game but at least I know I played my hardest. That night after the game had ended around eight o'clock, I cried until at least ten thirty. I ran out of tears because I cried so much. I was completely torn apart and didn't even know what happened in the game. I am glad I had someone to cry with though (Ali). Ali and I just were so emotionally impacted by the game and this was by far one of the worst days of my life. I didn't sleep well because I could not stop thinking about how I played.

Even though things might not turn out the way you plan or wish for, I have learned you have to bounce back and not let one bad thing lead into many other bad things. No matter how bad things may seem, it only makes you grow stronger as a person. Even though I can't stop replaying the game in my head every chance I get, I will eventually realize that this game doesn't define all four seasons I have played. Sometimes in life bad things will happen but how you respond to those things will help develop your character. You might think why is this happening to me or what did I do to deserve this, but it happens to everyone and different things impact different people. I really didn't want basketball to end because I have had so much fun playing the sport I love. Everyday I wish I could go back in time and replay the first round game. I am very appreciative of those who I am close to to be able to support me and after the game help me keep my head up high. I was able to talk to many people that night and I am so lucky to call them my friends. Some people have been there for me since day one.
I have loved all my teammates, coaches, and my supportive friends along my journey of high school sports. Now I have to bounce back from basketball and move on to golf!

State!

This week we are at the state tournament and it did not go quite as expected. We lost our first game to Valley and I was so upset because I knew I could have played so much better. I felt like I let down the team and could have performed a lot better. What is in the past is in the past now and we have to move on. This is just one challenge in my life that may hurt a lot right now but in the long run will only make me stronger as a person. I don't think I have ever cried so much before in my life. I was happy to have Ali to cry with all night. It was probably one of the worst days of my life. On the bright side, we now have the opportunity to go out with our last game being a win. Most people end their careers with a loss unless they go on to win the state championship, NCAA championship, and so on. We have one more game to go tomorrow against Wayne at 12. I really want to win and play my heart out.
The only problem that I have right now is my finger is broken!!! Ali broke my finger in our game yesterday but even though it wasn't her fault, she was still the one who passed it to me! I am just going to blame her for it because she knows I love her. :) My knuckle is swollen and is huge. We tried popping it but it didn't work. Today's game was hard for me to play because the ball hurt every time I touched it. We will see how tomorrow goes but I am really excited and think it will be very difficult game for us! Hopefully my finger heals before golf!

Tonight is Senior Night!!!! I think Michale is doing my speech tonight and I am really excited but at the same time it is going to be very sad. There are going to be way to many tears for me to handle because I am not a very emotional person. I will most likely cry tonight because this year my team is really close to me and we are all really tight. This is by far the closest team I have had in my four years. The best thing that is going to happen tonight at my game is that Mr. Wood is going to cry for me! (maybe) :) Also, he promised me that I can hold Oliver tonight because I bought him two chocolate donuts. I hope we can get a lot of fans at the game too. It should be a really fun night.
We play Tintic tonight. Last time when we played them we only won by six points. I hate playing them because they aren't the nicest people. On Tuesday, we played at Wendover and it was their senior night. I have become really good friends with their team, especially Braids. They gave all of our seniors a ton of candy and a powerade. Then their team gave us even more candy! It was so nice of them and I hope our senior night is as good as theirs was.
Next week is state and I am so excited. The bus ride is super long but we always have a good time. Our team has formed an acapella group. We have become really talented when it comes to singing and I'm pretty sure our team knows all the songs ever made. I can't wait for state but yet I don't want basketball to be over! But on the bright side I still have golf!

2/6/15

This week we had two games on Tuesday and Thursday. Tuesday we played ICS and beat them by a lot. On Thursday, we played Dugway and I feel really bad for them because they have to play both JV and varsity because they don't have enough players for both teams. I don't think I would have good sportsmanship like they do because they have only won a couple games and usually are beat by at least 30 points. I think our team is looking pretty good but we need to get better before the state tournament in two weeks. I think it would be best for us to continue to scrimmage the boys JV team whenever they are available. It is good for us to practice against faster people that way we can learn to take care of the ball. My shot has been off lately so this weekend I am going to shoot a lot that way I am ready for our games against Wendover and Tintic.
 I am really excited for next week but at the same time it is really sad because Thursday is senior night. I am hoping I don't cry during senior night because we have to focus for our game because it is really important. I am mostly just excited to spend more time with my team because there is never a dull moment when I'm around them! We always are having a good time and mostly we all just have fun messing around with Kat. Sometimes I get mad at our juniors because they are EXTREMELY loud on the bus when I am trying to sleep, but when I don't sleep it is always a good time when they are around. We all have so much fun together and I am going to miss spending every day together with them. I can't wait for next week!